Okay, am I just a good advertisement for BC?

I have been wanting to post this subject for a while!

Am I just a good advertisement for Birth Control??

Picture this:
Mom is running late because had to change poo diaper.
Mom is putting the kids in the car and gets wiped with snot and dirt.
Mom runs into house to put on old frumpy shirt and wishes she could still wear cute new shirt.
We are at softball practice with Marley.
Jon is coaching.
Mom wants to watch said practice.
Mom has 3 little kids.
Mom makes visual account for children every few seconds.
Mom is unable to watch practice but wants her daughter to know she is there for her.
Sadie has her blue jeans on backwards because that is how she put them on. She changes her clothes so often that I was just scrambling to get them in the car.
Carpenter throwing sand. Time out 2 times.
Sadie and Carpenter throw rocks at each other. Timeout.
Rowan is not listening and thinks he can run all over.
Sadie has to go pee.
Luckily male friend of ours watches the boys.
I come back and discover I am a good reason for birth control awareness.

Thinking how nice it would be....
if the kids all had matching clothes on.
NO Stains.
NO timeouts.
Were loving, sharing, kind to each other.
Never moved out of place so I could watch.

I came home and felt defeated. I don't want people to see the chaos but to see happiness. Tells self I can not be a reincarnated 50's television mother.

I am me. And that will have to be good enough.

Why don't I feel any better?